愛されたいと願う事を諦めてしまった。
しびれた私の身体は、罪の意識も感じられない。
嘘や欺瞞に目を潰して手にした真実。
あなたとの暮らしほどの夢は存在しなかった。
あなたがここにいたなら私のことを“間違いじゃない”と許してくれるのかな。
暗闇に浮かぶ愛ってものにいくら尋ねてみても、ゆっくりと微笑んで手を振り続けるだけ
でした。
家族、友、そして恋人さえも捨ててしまった。
そして誰もいなくなった。
愛されたいと願う事を諦めてしまった。
しびれた私の身体は、罪の意識も感じられない。
My numb body doesn't even feel the awareness of sin anymore.
Truth took my eyes by crushing them with lies and deception.
A dream like living with you did not exist.
If you were here, I wonder if you would forgive me, saying "it's not a mistake".
How many times I tried to look for this thing called love, emerging from pitch-black darkness, I only could slowly smile and wave my hand.
I ended up throwing away my family, friends and even lovers.
And then there was no one.
I gave up on wanting to be loved.
My numb body doesn't even feel the awareness of sin anymore.
My shivering body, have even forgotten any sense of guilt.
Eyes getting smashed by lies and deceit, but the truth I get.
A dream such as living together with you does not exist.
I wonder if you are with me 'This is not a mistake' and I will be forgiven.
No matter how much you ask a love that floats around in the darkness, only a small smile and a wave will be become the answer.
I've thrown away family, friends and even lovers.
And then nobody is here.
I have given up wishing to be loved.
My shivering body, have even forgotten any sense of guilt.